I crave marlorobos and
gin like any twenty
eight year old girl
would.
When did I
become a person
that doesn't
sit at bars and
light cigarettes? I tried
to put myself into that
picture today, to see
myself as that person
today, but I
can't.
I can only feel it -
like thirst where
comfort is not
available. My dog is
all tangled in my
headphones as I
cradle her in my arms.
When she nods off I
take a bite of Cherry
Garcia, which, I swear
I remember as being
pink in color. She
is this amazing little
creature, who I got
to watch
grow so much bigger
so fast.
I work about a seventeen
hour day in five
hours. I believe Harmon
thinks I'm ill
because of how much
I sleep but
I checked with my
co workers and they
reminded me that
our job
is in season.
Sometimes it's like
I'm trying to teach
the whole world
about what the
whole world
really is.
Other days
I'm just trying
not to pick
up and I
don't know what
the balance is
in all of
that.